Stuck between a rock and a hard place!!!

Well it has been a horrible end to 2011 for my weight loss journey.  I have not loss but 1 pound in 2 months.  This has been killing me.  I have been craving food like crazy and my body just doesn't feel like working out.  I have slacked on my eating and slacked on going to the gym.  It has not helped that we had 2 of the biggest holidays within the past 2 months.  The biggest culprit has been my Bipolar meds.  I started taking them again back in November and since then I have been beating myself up about hitting a plateau.  Which really did discourage me and i fell off the damn wagon.  I don't like this feeling.  I love that I was losing 7-10 lbs a month and I loved the way that I was feeling going to the gym working out and my clothes that I have not worn in years were finally starting to fit again and I didn't have to stretch out my damn shirts just to get them over my big ole belly and but.   But with out my meds I had become a horrible monster that y'all just don't know about.  It was ruining my life and had hurt many people in it, including my kids.  So I made the adult decision to go back on them and I love how it makes me feel.  I am able to deal with more of feelings and not just suppress them. SO right now I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.  But I am going to go see the dr on Jan 3, and talk to him about getting on a different meds and possibly getting a Nutritionist so that I can continue my journey to "loving myself" weight wise. 

November Weigh In!!!!

Well I am so mad at myself.  It is all my fault, and it is time to kick Leslie Joy in her ass and get her back in gear.  I went to Curves today to do my monthly weigh in and I was not pleased at all.  In one month I gained 3 pounds!!!!!!  Really Leslie!?!?!?!?!  So now I am back to my old food guide and will be eating more fish and lean chicken, salads, fresh fruit and veggies, and whole wheat noodles and brown rice.  Nothing extra, nothing that is not on my list.  I am going to do this and finish the year out right.  I have hit a small plateau and I plan on stepping up my game and fixing what I screwed up.  So here are my weigh in totals.

Bust- 51 inches (1 in loss)

Waist- 42 inches (1.5 in Loss)

Abdomen- 60.5 inches (1 in gain)

Hips- 61 inches ( 1 in Loss)

Thighs- 55 inches (1 in Loss)

Arms- 32 inches (2 in Gain but this muscle)

Body Fat- 48.30% (stayed the same)

BMI- 48.33 (.16 Loss)
WEIGHT : 303 LBS (3 lbs gain)

Ohio trip Cancelled!!!

Well, because I am sick and really just don't have the money right now to go, I had to postpone my trip to Ohio.  It really is upsetting.  I had planned on going to Ohio to see a very dear friend and her kids.  We have not seen each other in 12 yrs.  It was going to be a great 2 weeks and I would going to get alot of me time in so that I can come home and be able to focus on the things that I needed to focus on.  But hopefully I can be able to go in January. 


I was so depressed last night that I actually sat down and ate an entire pint of "BEN AND JERRY'S FISH FOOD".  really LESLIE?!?!?!?!?!?  But today I feel better and am not going to let me being sick and me not being able to go get me down.  So today I am going to get up and clean the house, do a work out or to to burn all those calories that I ate last night and this morning. HE HE and pick myself back up, dust off the dirt and continue through.  Oh yeah almost forgot

GEAUX LSU!!!!!!!!!!

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