As some of you know when I was teenager I used to be a 34C. I never got any bigger until I got pregnant with Katlyn. From there on out withe very pregnancy I got bigger and bigger. When I started working out last March I had myself measured and was a 48H. Being a 48H has been a horrible experience for me. I can't find any sports bras to wear to work out in, I can't wear anything sexy. All I have been stuck with is Granny bras. I want to feel and look sexy. I would love to have a breast reduction but I don't have the money for it. So I am stuck with doing any exercise that I can to reduce my breast size.
I went to Lane Bryant today and they measured me today and I was measured at a 42H!!!! I now have alot more options!!!!! Cute one too. I can't wait to buy new bras. For those who have never been through being big chested you don't know how something so simple can be such a HUGE deal. NO PUN INTENDED!!!!!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
WOOHOO official 300LBS!!!!!!!!
I woke up this am and did my weekly weigh-in and I weighed in at 300LBS!!!!!! WOOHOO HOT DAMN!!!!!!! That means that I have lost a total of 50lbs!!!! My next short term goal I set on October 1, 2011. IS to lose 30 lbs by Christmas day. If i can do it I will have lost 65 lbs with in 8 months. My long term goal was to lose 100 lbs by March. I won't hit that goal since I took June and July off to focus on my Biggest Loser Audition tape. So I have given myself an extra couple of months to lose it. I am not about failure but about success. So Here's to being UNDER 300 lbs by THANKSGIVING!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Photos from the past 7 months
Me in April 2011 at 330
Me October 2011
304 lbs!!!!
Me in May 2011 at 327
Me in June 2011 at 317
June 2011 at 317
Biggest Loser Season 13 Audition Casting call
Dallas, TX
Me October 2011
304 lbs!!!!
Monday, October 24, 2011
October Weight In!!!!
Well it has been 2 months since I applied for the Biggest Loser and didn't make it. But that is ok, because God has a different plan for me. I have been getting a lot of compliments from my friends. Some say that they can see the weight loss in my chest where others can see that I have a more defined waist and hip area. All I know is that I can actually fit into some of my clothes again. I have been a 4X for too long. I went to the gym last week and grabbed a sweat shirt before I left the house and it was a size 2X. WOW A 2X!!!!! The best part was that it wasn't tight and it went over the girls and my belly. lol My old work out pants fit too. They used to be tight and looked like I was wearing high waters. HA HA!!! But now they go down to my tops of my shoes. WOOHOO little victory.
I was told today that I had sunk into such a deep depression after I got back from the audition. But I really didn't see it until now. During the time that I was applying and making my video for the Biggest Loser, I had finally started to feel good about myself. This was something totally new to me cause I have never liked myself. i was made fun of as a child cause I had BIG eyes. So yes I hated what I looked like. I have always wondered how I had the boyfriends that I did when I was so ugly. When I would hear you look hot in those shorts or that dress I would look at them and roll my eyes and say "NO I don't now stop lieing to me". How could they love me or think that I was sexy. I wanted to love myself but I never could see what they saw. I still have problems seeing it but I know one thing and that is that I AM WORTH FIGHTING FOR. When I came back from the audition I had wanted it so bad and I tried to hide my depression from everyone, to the point that I was lieing to myself. Why was I not good enough for the show. I was told by the casting director that I was adorable, but not good enough for the show?? Well after the experience I decided to never try out for it again. Now I did make some really great friends who i can talk to about anything and not be judged. We support each other in our own quests to be healthy and smaller. I couldn't do it with out you guys and gals.
Ok so now y'all know alittle bit about me and I have bared my soul if only for a moment. On to the good news. My weight loss!!!!!
I was told today that I had sunk into such a deep depression after I got back from the audition. But I really didn't see it until now. During the time that I was applying and making my video for the Biggest Loser, I had finally started to feel good about myself. This was something totally new to me cause I have never liked myself. i was made fun of as a child cause I had BIG eyes. So yes I hated what I looked like. I have always wondered how I had the boyfriends that I did when I was so ugly. When I would hear you look hot in those shorts or that dress I would look at them and roll my eyes and say "NO I don't now stop lieing to me". How could they love me or think that I was sexy. I wanted to love myself but I never could see what they saw. I still have problems seeing it but I know one thing and that is that I AM WORTH FIGHTING FOR. When I came back from the audition I had wanted it so bad and I tried to hide my depression from everyone, to the point that I was lieing to myself. Why was I not good enough for the show. I was told by the casting director that I was adorable, but not good enough for the show?? Well after the experience I decided to never try out for it again. Now I did make some really great friends who i can talk to about anything and not be judged. We support each other in our own quests to be healthy and smaller. I couldn't do it with out you guys and gals.
Ok so now y'all know alittle bit about me and I have bared my soul if only for a moment. On to the good news. My weight loss!!!!!
Bust- 52 inches (2 in loss)
Waist- 43.5 inches (2.5 in Loss)
Abdomen- 59.5 inches (2.5 in Loss)
Hips- 62 inches ( 3 in Loss)
Thighs- 56 inches (5 in Loss)
Arms- 30 inches (2 in Loss)
Body Fat- 48.30% (.80% Loss)
BMI- 48.33 (1.43 Loss)
WEIGHT : 304 LBS (9 LBS LOSS)
WEIGHT : 304 LBS (9 LBS LOSS)
SO I have lost a total of 36 lbs since I started going to Curves. I have lost a total of 31 inches off of my body in only 5 months. That is an average of 7.2 lbs a month and 6.2 inches a month.
My next short term goal is to lose 25lbs between now and Christmas. And I plan on doing it during the worst time of the year THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS!!!! I know that I can do anything that I set my mind to.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Doubts can be hazadous to your Health
Well it has been a couple of weeks since I did my last post. I have been going through alot. But with all of the stress it only makes me want to work out more. I have upped my work outs to 2 hours on Monday and Thursdays and Tues and Wed 30-40 mins. I am trying to make sure that I get my mile in every day too. I am now up to walking 1.5 miles with no pain and lots of sweat. I have a feeling that I may become addicted to working out, is that even possible??? HA HA oh yeah it is. I love how it makes me feel when I am done it releases of all tension and pain that I am feeling inside.
Like this week when I had to deal with some very old feelings of uneasiness and doubts I went to work out and released it all and had a whole new mind and perspective on those doubts. It also does help when you have great friends who I have told that when I start to have those old doubts come back to just SLAP the SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!!!! HA HA My bestie was all to happy to oblige. lol Love you sweetie.
I have some really great people in my life who I love dearly and hold them close to my heart. These are the kind of people that are in your corner even when the chips are down or even thrown across the floor. They are there when the Cupcakes hit the fan and are more than willing to Slap you back to reality.
Like this week when I had to deal with some very old feelings of uneasiness and doubts I went to work out and released it all and had a whole new mind and perspective on those doubts. It also does help when you have great friends who I have told that when I start to have those old doubts come back to just SLAP the SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!!!! HA HA My bestie was all to happy to oblige. lol Love you sweetie.
I have some really great people in my life who I love dearly and hold them close to my heart. These are the kind of people that are in your corner even when the chips are down or even thrown across the floor. They are there when the Cupcakes hit the fan and are more than willing to Slap you back to reality.
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