October Weight In!!!!

Well it has been 2 months since I applied for the Biggest Loser and didn't make it.  But that is ok, because God has a different plan for me.  I have been getting a lot of compliments from my friends.   Some say that they can see the weight loss in my chest where others can see that I have a more defined waist and hip area.  All I know is that I can actually fit into some of my clothes again.  I have been a 4X for too long.  I went to the gym last week and grabbed a sweat shirt before I left the house and it was a size 2X.   WOW A 2X!!!!!  The best part was that it wasn't tight and it went over the girls and my belly. lol  My old work out pants fit too.  They used to be tight and looked like I was wearing high waters. HA HA!!!  But now they go down to my tops of my shoes.  WOOHOO little victory. 

I was told today that I had sunk into such a deep depression after I got back from the audition.  But I really didn't see it until now.  During the time that I was applying and making my video for the Biggest Loser, I had finally started to feel good about myself.  This was something totally new to me cause I have never liked myself.  i was made fun of as a child cause I had BIG eyes.  So yes I hated what I looked like.  I have always wondered how I had the boyfriends that I did when I was so ugly.  When I would hear you look hot in those shorts or that dress I would look at them and roll my eyes and say "NO I don't now stop lieing to me".  How could they love me or think that I was sexy.  I wanted to love myself but I never could see what they saw.  I still have problems seeing it but I know one thing and that is that I AM WORTH FIGHTING FOR.  When I came back from the audition I had wanted it so bad and I tried to hide my depression from everyone, to the point that I was lieing to myself.  Why was I not good enough for the show.  I was told by the casting director that I was adorable, but not good enough for the show??  Well after the experience I decided to never try out for it again.  Now I did make some really great friends who i can talk to about anything and not be judged.  We support each other in our own quests to be healthy and smaller.  I couldn't do it with out you guys and gals.  


Ok so now y'all know alittle bit about me and I have bared my soul if only for a moment.  On to the good news.  My weight loss!!!!!

Bust- 52 inches (2 in loss)

Waist- 43.5 inches (2.5 in Loss)

Abdomen- 59.5 inches (2.5 in Loss)

Hips- 62 inches ( 3 in Loss)

Thighs- 56 inches (5 in Loss)

Arms- 30 inches (2 in Loss)

Body Fat- 48.30% (.80% Loss)

BMI- 48.33 (1.43 Loss)
WEIGHT : 304 LBS (9 LBS LOSS)

SO I have lost a total of 36 lbs since I started going to Curves.  I have lost a total of 31 inches off of my body in only 5 months.  That is an average of 7.2 lbs a month and 6.2 inches a month.   

My next short term goal is to lose 25lbs between now and Christmas.  And I plan on doing it during the worst time of the year THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS!!!!  I know that I can do anything that I set my mind to.